All the things that I thought were true,
All the things that we’ve been through,
All the things that I’ve done for him,
We’re all a waste as it seems…
But why do I even bother,
When I treat him as a brother,
Could there be something hidden-
Something more maybe even?
Permanent scratches mark my heart,
As fingernails dig into it.
Like pain and love won’t stay apart,
Each day I fall in the dark pit.
Alas! I’ve found my life time curse,
The curse that destroyed me badly.
Although I’m mended by a nurse,
I heal, but break eternally.
Everything shakes, but I remain still.
No one will stand, but I know I will.
Even though death will hunt for me,
Making me back down can never be.
The poison comes and hollows me out,
As the swirling black hole swallows me,
Don’t know, don’t care what life is about,
The gray scale colors are all I see.
As depression comes so quickly,
Sadness, hatred, and the will to die.
I begin to see one word clearly:
Death. Suicide- a piece of pie.
But just when I feel no one loves me,
I remember a few faces,
One of them, yours, I see,
A bit of happiness then increases.
How strange, the way you affect my life,
As we do not talk much face to face,
But all that’s needed is a glance,
With your eyes, I know what they say.
I still don’t know how you could love me-
Short, fat, not pretty, not ugly.
Not kind, not mean, not dumb, not witty.
I’m just mediocre, really.
But you love me and you care,
All these years you’ve never failed.
You’ve never placed me in despair,
All these moments that we’ve shared.
The sun shines, the sun sets.
The ground’s dry, the ground’s wet.
People come, people go;
But I won’t – this I know.
To the wind, I say hello
As I hum in deep mellow.
The dandelions, I blow
As I dance in the meadow.
The sun so bright, smiles at me
As I sit under the tree.
Not one human I can see
In this field of my merry.
Alas! The sun has vanished.
The joyful sounds were silenced.
The wind, the heat, has perished.
As I begin my voyage.
I opened my eyes-
Hypocrites and lies.
I thought that they care,
Guess pride is all theirs.
Yes, I have been robbed-
What’s left are just sobs.
Finally saw clear,
With whom I stand near.
Life seems uncertain,
Covered by a curtain.
Broken dreams lie here
What’s next is unclear.